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have I lost already... or am I still in the game... this game of life... not as fun as the board game 'Life'... but, why would someone buy a board game this irritating? do I still have my foot in the door... or has it slammed in my face without my knowledge? I feel so broken... so exhausted... so weak... mind body and soul. I don't know how long I can keep this up for... for my sanity's sake, I wonder if I should... for what I want and love, I believe I should... but I need help... from you. I can't do this on my own... and I don't feel you here beside me... in this game... are you there? or are my walls up again... my ma

2010. and my 22nd birthday is tomorrow... if last year held my wedding and a baby boy I wonder what this year will hold. lol... the year before that held me getting engaged and finally moving out of my mother's place and getting pregnant... what a hectic couple of years. I'm hoping that this one will be less stressing... but I doubt that, with a son and money problems, that will lessen... not that I don't stress over stupid little things anyway... I'm sure my brain would find something to stress over even if I didn't have a baby and money problems... that's just the way I am. what are my wishes for this year? what are my resolutions?

Gabriel Owyn McKnight: June 14th @ 9:29pm 8lbs 10oz 51cm a full head of hair, cute little nose, cute little ears, 10 fingers and 10 toes. heard from a couple people (my mom and Mandy) that he has pretty long fingers for a baby... wouldn't surprise me with Will as his father. lol. though, if you see the picture of me from when I was at the hospital as a newborn, there's an identical resemblance :) (so, in other words, he's frackin adorable. lol) he's got chubby cheeks but he's not really chubby elsewhere. his arms are pretty lanky looking and his legs just look normal to me. his eyes are my favorite. they were half brown (around pupil) a